Hey my lovely friends,
I found myself at my computer this afternoon staring at a blank screen. I really wanted to write today, in what I guess is now my public journal (that I share with 3 other girls) but couldn't find anything significant to write. However, in the last 72 hours I've learned a lot about myself, and until the last 5 haven't been able to really process it. So here's what I've been processing.
Self-consciousness. Seriously. Why? What is it that causes us to internalize other peoples actions? I have been doing it my whole life, and its so exhausting. I can't sit here and contemplate why anymore, all I know right now is that I am more comfortable in my own skin than I've ever been in my life. I'm so grateful to the people whom I've encountered and talked to these last few weeks. I've learned more about myself than I anticipated to, and that's what makes touring so damn cool.
How craaaazy is it to be living on a bus with 10 other people? Traveling from state to state, meeting at least 50 new people every night, living off lunch meat and PB&J's? I'm so grateful I get to experience this. If I had a choice between this and ANY other job in the world, it wouldn't take me longer than a second to choose the status quo.
The good, the bad, the drunk, the loud, the ugly, the beautiful, the heat and the cold.... I'm enjoying every moment. This tour, along with the previous ones these past 2 years, have really helped me learn more about myself.
I don't know if this is the kind of subject you were hoping to read, or if I should be sharing any of this with you, but I had to get it off my chest.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE :)
I posted some pictures below... in the next blog down... from the last couple of days. Today we're in Philly (30 mins away from my home town!). We had lunch at this amazing Vietnamese restaurant, then Laura and I walked around China town for a while. We went into this great store that is exactly like every store in Asia... trinkets everywhere, people following you around to make sure you don't steal (smart by the way), cool instruments that we had NO idea how to play... I had a good time. Then we went back to the hotel, chilled for awhile and saw The Dark Knight. gotttaaaa say... pretty dark. I really loved it, but it made Heath Ledgers death all the more sad. By the way, I had to pee the entire movie and I think I may have really pushed my bladders limit this time.
then you know...Jen, Jeremy, Ali, Laura and I got in a cab and went back to the hotel. Overall, good rainy day in Philly.
I am excited for the show tomorrow. Really hope you all have been enjoying the shows as much as we have been. We're in the northeast now and truckin our way up to Canada.
I'm gonna hit the hay now. We get to sleep on beds tonight which is FANTASTIC! Waking up for a nice walk around the city. SO ON THAT NOTE.... Goodnight kiddies. thank you for taking the time to let me vent :)
-Alexa
PS. pretzel bites + fake cheese= regretful morning.
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2 comments:
pretzel bites & fake cheese? sounds horrific-- and made to make you feel ill.
glad to hear you are online. I will check this out more often. I am always interested what it's like for musicians on the road-- how you deal, how you cope and how you can sleep/eat/and work and just have a life.
Take Laura to get a real cheese steak "wit" (Alexa being a South Juhsey girl should know what this means) and not some Cherry Hill place, the real deal like Pat's. Gotta see South Street too. I miss that f%%##n place.
Mike from Ramblewood (and Lenape
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